Penelope's Birth Story

I'm going to work on this while it's still somewhat fresh in my mind. Penelope is two weeks old, and life with a newborn is totally different and overwhelming at times. I definitely haven't had much time for things other than baby. We are doing well, and there are good times where she naps for long periods of time, which is when I can do a few things.

I always liked reading labor stories when I was pregnant, so I wanted to share hers for myself to remember and for anyone else who is interested.

October 2nd
9 PM
We went in to the hospital to begin my induction, since I was at 41 weeks 1 day and only 1 cm dilated. I was ready to get things moving and my doctor recommended the induction to make sure the placenta stayed healthy.

We checked in and got all set up in our room and met the nurse who would be taking care of me for the night. I immediately rammed my knee into the side of the bed as soon as I tried to get in, so you could say it started off very well. Once I got in the bed, monitors were hooked up to my belly, so it was interesting to be able to see the contractions on the screen.

10:30 PM
They started with the foley bulb, which goes into the cervix and is blown up like a small balloon to help dilate the cervix. A doctor placed the foley bulb, and when she was done, I asked her if the bed was heated, because I was feeling really warm where I was lying. She looked puzzled and said no, then checked on things down there and found that she had accidentally broken my water. Oops, but it just meant that they would prefer me to have the baby in the next 12 hours or so.

I waited in the bed (with about 12 layers of cloths under me to soak up the water) with Greg sitting in a chair beside me, holding my hand, and my nurse left to let things start moving. The contractions started getting stronger after about half an hour or so, and I began squeezing Greg's hand through them, although they were still manageable.

October 3rd
12:30 AM
Greg actually fell asleep at some point, and I was squeezing his hand trying to wake him up, because I needed to pee and needed his help getting to the bathroom, but I had to say his name and poke him. I went pee and that's when my foley bulb popped out. That was good news and meant the induction was working, so I called in the nurse and she started me on pitocin to get contractions going.

I stayed on the pitocin working through contractions by squeezing Greg's hand for the next couple hours, and made it to 3 or 4 cm before I asked for the epidural. The contractions were getting stronger at that point. I knew that I wanted an epidural before I came in, but I wanted to wait as long as I could hold off because I wouldn't be able to walk around afterward.

3:30 AM
They placed the epidural, which was not nearly as bad as I expected. I sat up in the bed while it was placed and Greg sat right in front of me, holding my hands, and the doctor was very quick.

After that, things got much better and I couldn't feel the pain, just pressure, and I could still move my legs.

10:00 AM
I was checked on every hour or so to see how things were going and things got to where they needed to be for me to be able to push when I felt the urge. I was 10 cm dilated and baby was at zero station, meaning she was ready to go.

11:15 AM
My midwife had me try a few practice pushes, which went well, but I couldn't feel too much. I still hadn't made further progress or had a strong urge to push after a while, so she gave me two options: continue waiting to see how things go or stop the epidural to give me more feeling and increase the urge to push. I was really scared to stop the epidural, but I looked to Greg for support and we both agreed to stop it.

12:00 PM
That was definitely a turning point where things got more intense. I fully intended to do epidural all the way, so finishing it without meds was not in my plans. The contractions got stronger and stronger, and things are a little fuzzy in the timeline after that. I know sometime after that, I called my midwife back in because I wanted to try to push.

I could be off on the timeline, because I was focusing on getting through each contraction, but I began pushing, which was really hard. That's probably an understatement - it was the hardest thing I've done. My midwife was really great in guiding me through it, telling me exactly where to push and how to use the rest of my body doing it. To me, it felt like forever that I was pushing, but my family tells me it was a really short time. Greg thinks it was only about 20 mins, and my mom, who was also in the delivery room, thinks it was about an hour.

I also ended up using the mirror, which I didn't think I would want, but my midwife suggested it may help me to see her. I actually think it did help, since then I could see if I was making progress and actually see her head (full of hair). My mom told me afterward that I was just letting out small yells/screams, but I felt like I was screaming bloody murder. It was an intense experience, but I kept telling myself how badly I wanted her to come out, and Greg, my mom, and the midwife were all there giving me lots of support.

1:02 PM
Every contraction was extremely strong and painful at this point, but finally as one big contraction hit, I pushed as hard as I could (if you've ever seen Total Recall with that scene with their eyeballs about to burst out of their face, that's I felt like!), and Penelope was born, loud and screaming, into this world.

After that, they immediately put her on my chest and she knew right away how to breastfeed. I held her for about an hour doing skin to skin, feeling totally exhausted and relieved and happy, and then they measured and weighed her.

We have been trying to get used to living with a tiny person ever since. It's definitely life-altering. Some days are hard, really hard, but other times are better.

I haven't had any time for reading blogs and it may take me a bit to get back into any routine, but I appreciate everyone who has been reading and/or thinking of us - all the comments have been really kind and I hope I can catch up again one day. I haven't gotten to my computer much, but I've been reading comments on my phone and I appreciate them, even if it takes me a while to respond!

What I've Been Reading

This post was written ahead of time, since I knew I would be on baby duty 24/7. I'm glad I did, since I am now finishing it with baby in one arm. More updates to come on Penelope's delivery soon; I can't make promises as to when that will be but I will try my best.

Happy two year anniversary to Show Us Your Books! I haven't been doing it quite that long, but it has easily become one of my favorite times of the month. I have discovered so many new books through it, and am so glad it happens.

Live from New York: An Uncensored History of Saturday Night Live by James Andrew Miller - 4 stars

I've been watching SNL the past couple years, and while this book doesn't cover the newest seasons, I always like finding out the backstories behind TV shows. I liked that this book was almost entirely quotes and interviews from former cast members, hosts, and writers. Some seasons were more interesting to read about than others - I really liked the beginning and the latest show discussions.

A Summer at Sea by Katie Fforde - 3 stars
I received a copy of this book from NetGalley in exchange for an honest review.

I really enjoyed the setting and the characters were okay. The setting was lovely and did make me feel like going on a summer holiday. I wish there had been a little more romance, although I found the midwife parts interesting. I wonder if midwives in the US are much different from the UK, because it was made to seem like there was a huge battle between doctors and midwives in the book, but I haven't come across that in the US. That part interested me personally, and the story itself was a little slow-paced but a nice beach read. 

Eligible by Curtis Sittenfeld - 4 stars

I love a retelling of a classic book, depending on how well it's retold. This is a retelling of Pride & Prejudice in modern times, and at first I was a bit put off when I read the synopsis, because Kitty and Lydia are obsessed with Crossfit and it seemed too modern to me. I actually enjoyed it - it was kind of funny and felt like Mr. and Mrs. Bennett were right on point (and now that they were in modern times, Mrs. Bennett reminded me of someone I know well in real life). The story is a little crazy, but I think the characters themselves stuck to their true personalities (except maybe Liz sometimes - she annoyed me occasionally but I could deal).

The Confectioner's Tale by Laura Madeleine - 3.5 stars
I received a copy of this book from NetGalley in exchange for an honest review.

I like historical fiction, especially if there's a romantic story involved. It has an alternating timeline, which sometimes I get distracted by in books, but this one I didn't mind. I enjoyed the historical parts much more than the more recent timeline, but they were both interesting. The romance was sweet and if you want a light historical novel, this would be good.

A Matter of Class by Mary Balogh - 4 stars

I enjoyed that this was a really short read, so there wasn't much room for excessive descriptions or background. There is a "twist" that is easy to figure out as you read more of the story, but I still liked it.

In a Dark, Dark Wood by Ruth Ware - 4 stars

I've seen lots of mixed reviews on this, which surprises me because I couldn't put it down. I'm not saying it's the best book of all time, but if you want a good thriller, you should check it out. It's my kind of book, because it doesn't have lots of grisly scenes, just creepiness and trying to figure out who's being crazy.

The Education of Dixie Dupree by Donna Everhart - 4 stars
I received a copy of this book from NetGalley in exchange for an honest review.

I didn't know a lot about this book going in, which I'm actually glad about. Just know that it has some really dark themes, but is also a Southern tale about a young girl experiencing events in her own way. I recommend it if you don't mind the rough subjects, which are accompanied by a little bit of charm.

Safe With Me by K.L. Slater - 4 stars
I received a copy of this book from NetGalley in exchange for an honest review.

I felt like this was a solid psychological thriller. The characters and story kept me guessing and it reminded me of The Girl On the Train, because I wasn't sure if I could trust the main character.

My favorite books this month were In a Dark, Dark, Wood, Eligible, and The Education of Dixie Dupree.

I'm linking up with Steph & Jana today for Show Us Your Books. Follow me here on Goodreads.

One Week with Penelope

I wanted to check in really quick since things have been such a whirlwind. We have been trying to keep up with Penelope's feeding, sleeping, and pooping schedule. Now I have a moment while she's taking a little nap. She will be one week tomorrow; here is what she's been up to so far. More to come on the labor and delivery later on.

Penelope Willow was born on October 3rd at 1:02 PM, weighing 7 lbs 6 oz, and measuring 20 in long.

We are both crazy about her and so, so happy. It has not been easy so far, but she is the sweetest thing ever and I am so thankful she's ours. Now I'm off to go do some more boob torture, I mean breastfeeding.

Friday Things

Yesterday was my birthday and I had a fantastic, relaxing day but I didn't have many plans, because literally all I want is a baby. I hoped it would be Muffin's birthday, but she does not want to come out.

Due Date:
Baby had her due date on the 24th, and she's still hanging out in the belly and there wasn't a lot of progress at our most recent check-up. So the latest news is that we have an induction scheduled for Monday. If she doesn't appear on her own this weekend, our cozy girl is going to hopefully make her appearance then.

I feel like all my pictures are the same thing. Bump photos - it's weird to think my bump won't be there anymore. Although some things will be easier - getting out of bed, shaving my legs, getting off the couch like a person instead of a puppy that is too fat to get off its back, etc.

Doctor Who Accessories:
I've already bought her a Doctor Who headband, because of course I have. There may be some Doctor Who themed newborn photos ahead. I may be freaking out.

I love getting surprises in the mail, like stuff I signed up for months ago and then forgot about. I signed up for a free baby box from Sam's Club and it's pretty cute. It came with this awesome board book.

Greg took me out for birthday night dinner to one of my favorite restaurants, Home Grown Cafe. I got the seitan cobb wrap, which was all kinds of delicious, and it was so nice to get out.

Keep watching Instagram... if anything crazy happens, like having a baby, I will let you know.

Things I Love to Dislike

... Celebrity news - I have not read any Brangelina news and I don't read much/any celebrity news. I'm not that interested and I feel weird reading celebrity relationship stories anyway and pretty much don't believe anything I hear.

... Any housewife show - I tried, but I cannot sit through an episode. All that keeps running through my mind is, "Why? Why do they care?" I just can't get interested in rich ladies talking behind each others' back. Whatever the draw is, it's not for me! I have recently watched a few episodes of Say Yes to the Dress, though, so who am I to say what to watch.

... Beer - I feel like flavored beers are such a trap. Before I turned 21, I was so excited about pumpkin flavored beers, only to be utterly disgusted when I finally had one. Beer and I have never become friends. My favorite drinks are ciders, but I haven't missed drinking much since becoming pregnant since I didn't do it often.

... Cats - Just kidding, I love my cats. I put this in here only because my cat is running rampant around my house right now scratching everything in sight out of... what? boredom? an effort to annoy me?

... Spicy food - I wish I liked spicy food, sometimes, but it is not for me. When I eat it, all I can taste is hot. And if there are certain spices in it, my mouth breaks out and gets all swollen, which is not fun (I'm looking at you, Cool Ranch Doritos, which I realize are not even spicy).

... Snow - When did I stop being a kid and snow became the root of all evil? I am from the South, and snow used to be a magical thing that we rarely got. Now, living in Delaware, we get it every year and I love the light snow but could do without the snow storms. The number of times I have driven through snow pouring down is crazy.

... Politics - I will freely share my views, but seriously - why can't we all just get along?

... Wearing pants - I'm not sure if I'm ready for fall weather and leg traps, yet. I like the feel of shorts and dresses and no pants!

... Coffee - Again, with the fall thing - I won't be getting pumpkin spice lattes. I will drink coffee in situations where I reallllly need to wake up, but I am not a big fan. I basically have little kid tastes - I like hot chocolate, and strawberry daiquiris without the liquor.

Anything you agree/disagree with? Please help me see the merits if there are things that you like.